Thursday, February 4, 2010
I've always been the one giving in, salvaging every situation, being the one who's always worrying about this and that, and also trying to work things out when something goes wrong.
Now, I'm getting exhausted.
As much as I hate the way how people don't appreciate my being there for them, I'll still be there no matter what. People call me stupid, call me silly, yet all these time, I never learnt. You can leave me, ignore me, don't want me, I'll still be dumb enough to not notice it.
You told me, "We will work things out."
But you know what? You never tried, so it never worked out. I hate that you're giving me empty promises yet I believed in them. I trusted that what I see is not who and what you are.
But now, you're proving so much to me that I'm starting to lose faith.
You've changed so much that I don't even know if you are still you. You have your own clique of friends, and a boyfriend whom you have already given your life to. Love to you now, is everything under the sun. Nothing beats being in love, not even a friend whom you used to be close to.
I wonder if you even realised. Because if you did, then I wonder why this is happening.
I don't want you to ask me what happened, whether or not I'm referring to you.
I want you to know that it is you.
I'm sick of crying over broken friendships. But there's a part of me just can't help it.
I can't let go like that. It hurts, hell lot.
And as much as I wanna try giving up, I can't. It bothers me too much.
XOXO, S @ 1:24 AM.
